I had found out about this Asian American magazine a while ago, I think perhaps from the Kollaboration after party Jenn got us into. These were handed out for free, and I think someone I recognized was on the cover, so I snatched it up. Ever since then, I've been following them on twitter and fb. I finally made the plunge and subscribed to them at the end of last year, and I'm so glad I did! I finally got around to reading through the winter and spring issues recently, and they've got gems of interesting articles as well as good recs for books and beauty products to check out. One fun section is about dating in our modern age, and a little section about poor pick up lines had me cracking up:
Having a second child has been more difficult for me than expected. I was not prepared for the heartache of what literally felt like a breaking up or falling out with the love of my life: my first born. I had not read about this in any blogs, vlogs, or anything. I mean, I had read about the difficulty of managing your time between two kids, but no one mentioned how difficult it would be to step back from your obsession with your first and only child to love another. It did make me resent my time alone with Leila a bit in the beginning because that meant Ethan was off having fun with daddy while I was stuck at home sustaining a newborn. My first love was learning about a life beyond mama. It felt like knife wounds to the heart. This is how I came to realize what it really means to sacrifice. I willingly give up something that I hold so dear and close to my heart for the sake of someone else. It hurts and it is an uphill battle to try...
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