peekie wu!

Thank you for the lovely notes and cards of comfort and warmth yesterday.  To be honest, I was a bit surprised to hear from some of you, but it's nice to know there are a few people actually reading this blog.  I feel a lot better today because of you guys.  *virtual hugs*  Time also has a way of lessening the deepness of the sadness.  I'm sure there will be days ahead that will be difficult again, like when I actually see my mom in person for the first time, but I'll cross that bridge then. In the meantime, I'd like to continue doing regular things to further distance the sad feelings and memories.  I wish I blogged more regularly so that I wouldn't start forgetting things, but c'est la vie.  Ethan has gotten used to his new shoes now, and doesn't protest putting them on as much anymore.  We did go to Little Gym in our area, and Ethan was curiously terrified.  He wouldn't let go of Lucas, and refused to be put down.  Even his legs and feet were strong

Cancer and death seems to surround me lately.  I used to think cancer was something only the few got in their lives, and that if you made healthy choices in life, you could avoid it.  But, I'm not so sure anymore.  Two of my coworkers' moms passed away recently, and my boss just let us know that he found out he has cancer.  He has young kids, and so much life left to live, so here's hoping he can fight it.  Then, the hardest hit happened this morning.  My grandma passed away.  We only recently found out she had stage 4 lung cancer.  My mom is taking it pretty hard, and I don't know what to say to her.  I've never heard her so sad before.  It makes me very sad to hear her mourn the loss. The only light in my life right now is Ethan.  He's growing so fast and learning so much every day.  He is the reason why I try so hard.  He makes my little family unit whole.

Things have been changing quite a lot lately.  We finally got our new closet installed at the end of July. There's still a mirror, drawer front, and hamper that needs to be installed/fixed, but it came together rather quickly.  I need to get my life organized now, no excuses. When Jenny and her mom came to visit recently, we took them to Ethan's daycare's open house.  All of my pictures from that day are on my dslr, so I still have to upload those.  It was a good time though.  They had little farm animals and a pony outside to pet and ride.  Ethan was both scared and fascinated with the pony because he has a thing for horses lately and can pronounce "HORSE" very well.  He didn't want to touch any of the animals actually, which I guess is a good thing in terms of hygiene.  He's more of a look from afar kinda guy. I started a new workout series called 21 day fix, which is a part of the beach body franchise.  I haven't been follow