After bath shenanigans Going from one child to two has got to be the toughest in my opinion. Lucas thought going from 0 to 1 was more shocking since everything was so new and different. But, for me, I knew that my whole life would be turned upside down once we had a child, so I had zero expectations. It's not that I had expectations this time around, but we already had certain patterns and established relationships as a family of three. I loved being Ethan's mom. Although he drove me insane with his tantrums, I relished picking out his clothes, dressing him, brushing his teeth, bathing him, and especially, putting him to bed with books and lullabies. I wanted to be there for him at the start and end of his days. I wanted to be able to anticipate his every thought and desire before he needed to express it. I wanted to be the best mom I could ever be. Shortly before Leila was due, about a month or two out, I realized th...