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daily aspirations

I came across this on Instagram a week or so ago, and it really struck a chord:
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They're all things I believe in, and have been consciously aware of at one point or another, but it's a great reminder for my daily life.
  1. Speak with integrity: My number one pet peeve in life is fakeness.  Fakeness, manipulation, and putting on a front are all things I really detest.  So, this first one is really the very core of my beliefs.  I've always said, that if I were to live in the Divergent world, I'd definitely belong to the Candor faction (and Lucas to Amity).  But, the other notes that go along with this aren't things I've always focused on.  I could definitely work on using the power of my word for love, in other words, not speaking against myself or gossiping about others.
  2. Not taking it personally: Yea, my brain knows to do this, but my heart has a hard time cooperating.  Whether it's work or my personal life, I need to remember that what others do is NOT because of me.  Lucas is actually the one that introduced me to the idea, a long time ago, that what other people say or do is a reflection of their own life and where they're at.
  3. ASS U ME: Don't assume, because it can make an ass out of u and me.  I actually picked up on this when I first started working over 9 years ago.  My mentor had given me this tip in regards to something work-related, but it is a life lesson that I need to keep reminding myself to not fall prone to do.  Miscommunication leads to misunderstandings.  I don't normally have a problem with this, especially professionally, but just like the previous point, when my heart gets in the way, I get in trouble.
  4. Do my best: When I really care, I do my best, always.  Sometimes, I get hurt and falter at following points 2 & 3 of this list when I feel that I am not reciprocated someone else's best.  But, maybe I'm just taking it too personally, and making assumptions that it is not someone else's best - maybe it is at the time.  Perhaps I can combat mom guilt with this because I know that I definitely try my best for Ethan every day, at every moment.
I need to print this out or paint murals of it everywhere I go.  Realistically, I just need to carve it into my memory banks and toss out useless info like my old, no-longer-working home phone number.
     
     

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